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Profound, I'm not
Jun. 30th, 2007 09:43 pmSo I'm sitting here directly under the air conditioner's vent (and isn't that just comfy as all-get-out?) and I'm thinking, "I should write something in my blog that isn't whiney". But life is good and bad - and I don't have a thing to write about that someone else hasn't said already.
Friends are dying in my world. And believing in the eternal soul, my mind skips right past how much I'm going to miss them to how much wonder they are about to experience. And I feel a small, tiny pang of envy for them, anticipating their next journey.
I'm sure sorrow for my (our) loss will follow but like impending childbirth, it is the wonder and the awe of Life's Cycle that is holding me right now.
We had small joys in the last few days. Going to Barnes and Noble's with my husband and my youngest. Finding a game ("shut the Box") to bring to the demo today, test-driving it while my youngest and I waited for our very-late dinner/breakfast and then watching folks come back again and again to play it this afternoon. A demo that was short and sweet - and the rain clouds stayed away so everything was packed up dry.
My linen garb - no sweating! Yippeee! (Although I was disappointed that I wasn't asked about my pony tail so I could talk about Viking-era Norse women's hairstyles.) My husband packing in, fighting, and packing out from the demo with no pain.
Friends who invited us over for pool time after the demo. Even though we didn't go (too wiped after unloading the truck), the offer and the thought of their friendship was heart-warming. A friend calling to touch base in the face of our impending loss - and hearing about the casting he's doing for an upcoming event. (I'd forgotten he did anything besides brew and flirt!) Watching other friends gather close mutual ones who are in heart-pain...
Friends.
Every once in a while I just have to stop and truly appreciate how vast, how deep, and how wonderous my ocean of friendship really is. Man is truly an island, but oh, the waters around us!
It's just been that sort of day.
Friends are dying in my world. And believing in the eternal soul, my mind skips right past how much I'm going to miss them to how much wonder they are about to experience. And I feel a small, tiny pang of envy for them, anticipating their next journey.
I'm sure sorrow for my (our) loss will follow but like impending childbirth, it is the wonder and the awe of Life's Cycle that is holding me right now.
We had small joys in the last few days. Going to Barnes and Noble's with my husband and my youngest. Finding a game ("shut the Box") to bring to the demo today, test-driving it while my youngest and I waited for our very-late dinner/breakfast and then watching folks come back again and again to play it this afternoon. A demo that was short and sweet - and the rain clouds stayed away so everything was packed up dry.
My linen garb - no sweating! Yippeee! (Although I was disappointed that I wasn't asked about my pony tail so I could talk about Viking-era Norse women's hairstyles.) My husband packing in, fighting, and packing out from the demo with no pain.
Friends who invited us over for pool time after the demo. Even though we didn't go (too wiped after unloading the truck), the offer and the thought of their friendship was heart-warming. A friend calling to touch base in the face of our impending loss - and hearing about the casting he's doing for an upcoming event. (I'd forgotten he did anything besides brew and flirt!) Watching other friends gather close mutual ones who are in heart-pain...
Friends.
Every once in a while I just have to stop and truly appreciate how vast, how deep, and how wonderous my ocean of friendship really is. Man is truly an island, but oh, the waters around us!
It's just been that sort of day.
