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We're back from our vacation, and boy what a great vacation it was!

Mostly because I was off of Gleevec for three weeks!!!

SURPRISE!!!

That hiatus proved that my leg-weakness is a side effect of the drug. Who woulda thunk it? But boy howdy, am I having a problem facing this weekend... at some point, I'm going to have to start taking the stuff over again. Hiatus is over.

And I don't want to.
I violently don't want to.

I am so full of energy now, back to 'normal'. So cheerful, so out of pain. I had no idea how much the stuff was affecting me... I've slept straight through nearly every night without cramps or nausea and got up the next morning chipper & ready to tackle everything. I walked - everywhere. Yeah, I still got numb and shakey legs, but so s-l-o-w-l-y! Grinned at everyone, hugged everyone. Came home & bought a new iPod (my old one died months ago) and listened to music just because I wanted to, which I haven't done since my second year on Gleevec had started. I was tired, tired, and sore all the time and didn't even realise how badly I was feeling. Now I know.

I don't want to go back. I've got eight more months of the stuff to take. I've got to get my gumption up and get on it. I guess. Or at least I probably should until I can schedule an appointment with the Oncologist and see if he has suggestions...

*sigh*

Nothing earth-shaking here, but it is tearing me up, oddly. I cry whenever I think I have to go back to it.
Time to find those 'big girl panties'.