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Nov. 20th, 2015 06:13 amI was reading someone else's blog and they mentioned that they'd be 'taking a week off' because they were starting on an anti-depressant/anxiety medication which they knew would give them mild flu-like lethargy and aches. It made me stop and think for a moment. Two weeks ago I, too, was prescribed the same sort of thing... I've rather violently rejected the idea of taking anything like that for years - actually, rejected taking any kind of pill at all, having been raised by a woman addicted to prescription drugs. It scars a child, being the one who sits with her parent and cares for them while they detox again and again at home, away from medical care, throughout that child's middle years of growing.
But my insomnia was getting worse. To the point that I was willing to ask for sedatives (figuring that my expected lifespan will be at best 20 years, I was willing to risk getting addicted to them if I could just sleep more often than once every couple of days.) Instead the doctor suggested that I was experiencing heightened anxiety and suggested treating that as a first step. So with trepidation I've started the regime... I have been sleeping better. Sometimes f-a-r better than I think I should be. Some days have seen as much as 16 hours of sleep but I supposed I've some 'catching up' to do. I haven't, however, completely kicked the bouts of insomnia nor found an improved ability to concentrate and have been spending a goodly portion of my awake hours sort of in and out of focus. Which brings me back around to what I first mentioned reading. Perhaps, since it 'takes a couple of weeks to adapt to the medication' what I've been experiencing is akin to the aforementioned author's 'flu-like lethargy'. I hope so. I also hope that it will go the heck away soon because I have things piling up on my desk which need addressing. As well as sewing projects that are beginning to clamor for attention. (I am a deputy chatelaine specifically in charge of our Gold Key/loaner clothing and have not yet even looked in the bins to see what is available, in need of repair, or needed to be re-stocked. We don't have an event scheduled until January, which gives me a nice healthy chunk of time to get that taken care of, if I could just motivate myself.)
But my insomnia was getting worse. To the point that I was willing to ask for sedatives (figuring that my expected lifespan will be at best 20 years, I was willing to risk getting addicted to them if I could just sleep more often than once every couple of days.) Instead the doctor suggested that I was experiencing heightened anxiety and suggested treating that as a first step. So with trepidation I've started the regime... I have been sleeping better. Sometimes f-a-r better than I think I should be. Some days have seen as much as 16 hours of sleep but I supposed I've some 'catching up' to do. I haven't, however, completely kicked the bouts of insomnia nor found an improved ability to concentrate and have been spending a goodly portion of my awake hours sort of in and out of focus. Which brings me back around to what I first mentioned reading. Perhaps, since it 'takes a couple of weeks to adapt to the medication' what I've been experiencing is akin to the aforementioned author's 'flu-like lethargy'. I hope so. I also hope that it will go the heck away soon because I have things piling up on my desk which need addressing. As well as sewing projects that are beginning to clamor for attention. (I am a deputy chatelaine specifically in charge of our Gold Key/loaner clothing and have not yet even looked in the bins to see what is available, in need of repair, or needed to be re-stocked. We don't have an event scheduled until January, which gives me a nice healthy chunk of time to get that taken care of, if I could just motivate myself.)
