Feeling good
Jun. 15th, 2009 05:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
stitchwhichI'm Posty McPost today.
I just got back from the gym. I've made a commitment to go every weekday for one hour. Ultimately, my goal is strength and aerobic training but right now I'm working on regaining the enjoyment that I once felt as an athlete*. So I have a very minimal weight workout then wander around all the aerobic equipment and try out the ones that intrigue me. Today was the rowing machine. That rocked! I left feeling a little sweaty, a little shaky, muscles warm and weak but not too weak. Just sort of "I feel good" glowy and tired.
Because this time I am not going to be bullied into pushing myself fast and hard - and hurting myself as a result. I shall treat it like recess and teach myself, again, how good it feels to move and play. And to concentrate on not disassociating while doing it (I don't perceive pain while working out or doing PT. It's a real problem and another reason why I'm approaching the gym with a different mindset right now. Heal the psyche first so the body can naturally follow.)
I know once I regain the feeling of escaping from the daily drag to have fun I'll roll right into challenging myself to try something harder, longer, heavier. Because it will feel good again. I have vague memories of what it was like to enjoy moving, muscles working, hitting the "zone". I didn't get any of that the last time I tried working out and it turned me away from returning. That ain't gonna happen this time. I plan on having so much fun that I'll slightly resent Pennsic for taking me away from my daily break.
*National swim team (backstroke, freestyle, dive) / Track (cross-country running, 440, javelin) / Gymnastics (floor ex, horse, balance beam. Too busty for the bars but oh, did I want to try them!) Yeah, you'd never guess that to see me...
I just got back from the gym. I've made a commitment to go every weekday for one hour. Ultimately, my goal is strength and aerobic training but right now I'm working on regaining the enjoyment that I once felt as an athlete*. So I have a very minimal weight workout then wander around all the aerobic equipment and try out the ones that intrigue me. Today was the rowing machine. That rocked! I left feeling a little sweaty, a little shaky, muscles warm and weak but not too weak. Just sort of "I feel good" glowy and tired.
Because this time I am not going to be bullied into pushing myself fast and hard - and hurting myself as a result. I shall treat it like recess and teach myself, again, how good it feels to move and play. And to concentrate on not disassociating while doing it (I don't perceive pain while working out or doing PT. It's a real problem and another reason why I'm approaching the gym with a different mindset right now. Heal the psyche first so the body can naturally follow.)
I know once I regain the feeling of escaping from the daily drag to have fun I'll roll right into challenging myself to try something harder, longer, heavier. Because it will feel good again. I have vague memories of what it was like to enjoy moving, muscles working, hitting the "zone". I didn't get any of that the last time I tried working out and it turned me away from returning. That ain't gonna happen this time. I plan on having so much fun that I'll slightly resent Pennsic for taking me away from my daily break.
*National swim team (backstroke, freestyle, dive) / Track (cross-country running, 440, javelin) / Gymnastics (floor ex, horse, balance beam. Too busty for the bars but oh, did I want to try them!) Yeah, you'd never guess that to see me...
