Still healing
Feb. 2nd, 2010 12:41 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
stitchwhichA year ago I started having flashbacks and panic attacks - bad enough that I needed drugs to deal with them and entered therapy. I was able to set the drugs aside a couple of months into the therapy and even ended that about five months after I had my first appointment.
But you know, I'm not 100% yet. I know this. I hide more, staying alone for long hours and interacting, even with friends, over the Internet. There's safety behind that screen. And I can get overstressed easily when faced with unfamiliar things that I hadn't set up myself - I'm doing that right now, as a matter of fact, which is how I started looking at the last year.
I know I'm healing. And the world isn't going to stay still in order to give me time to react comfortably to stressors. But dang, I resent that it is so easy for me to get rattled. I want to be back to normal and I want it now! Huh!
But you know, I'm not 100% yet. I know this. I hide more, staying alone for long hours and interacting, even with friends, over the Internet. There's safety behind that screen. And I can get overstressed easily when faced with unfamiliar things that I hadn't set up myself - I'm doing that right now, as a matter of fact, which is how I started looking at the last year.
I know I'm healing. And the world isn't going to stay still in order to give me time to react comfortably to stressors. But dang, I resent that it is so easy for me to get rattled. I want to be back to normal and I want it now! Huh!
