Hard choices

[stitchwhich]

I have some difficult thoughts rolling around in my head concerning my SCA participation and I know no matter which path I chose, there will be unhappiness. I hope that honor guides me well. No matter how I work it out, I will wait until after this weekend is over and the stress load is less... but I imagine my decision is pretty much already made, it's just implimenting it that will be so painful.

I wish I didn't feel forced into a corner. Where has my shiny Kingdom gone?