A Quiet New Year's Eve

I plan on staying home tomorrow night, even though good friends are hosting a party. Why? Because I have things to do to get ready for the eent I'm hosting next Saturday, or at least that is my cover story, but if I dug deeper, I'd have to admit that mostly it's because I don't enjoy most parties in my 'group'. Why? Because parties are where folks I know get drunk and then blurt out the most hurtful things they can say to others. Often, I am in the 'others' catagory and being sober while they are drunk, it bites deeper and stays longer than it would if I were moving in a comfortable blur. So to avoid subsequent nights spent inventing conversations and examining my past actions from all angles, I just avoid parties. Too much drama. Not enough fun.

I rather regret my thin skin on days like today - I would look forward to spending time with some of the folks I know will be in attendance, heck, spending the New Year hugging my husband would be nice once in a while instead of a phone call from the house to the party, but still - I'm too much a sissy to risk getting another heart-thrust, or even just a guilt-trip, from conversations with tipsy people.

*sigh*

It's good that I have event tokens that need to be made, eh?