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Nov. 8th, 2011 10:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
stitchwhichOh yeah, it's Tuesday. Are we positive? Because it sure feels like a Monday. Even the delivery of half of my Lego order yesterday isn't doing much to make me feel chipper.
I've been working, off and on, on my heraldic job since the first of the month and I'm so behind that I can feel the disapproval looming over me - I went from "hey, this isn't so bad" last month to total confusion and feeling overwhelmed this month. This isn't unusual for me, in that I tend to understand things in the broad sense and be comfortable with them at the beginning, then flail around in the details for a while until I manage to slog through and find everything clear again. And during that phase even the obvious stuff gets lost or forgotten. It's just an aspect of the learning curve for me.
But it ain't comfortable. Especially when the clock is ticking and I had no idea that it was going to hit this hard or take this long to do something that should be pretty easy (administratively).
My knee injury is keeping me from getting satisfactory rest or being able to sit at my desk for long periods of time. I've spent far too much of the last seven days flat on my back with a book* because I couldn't do any more work (pain tends to magnify the mental confusion) and couldn't sleep, either.
In the last few days I've been working for a few hours on the heraldry stuff, then taking a break, then getting more and more tensed up again until I could go back to the desk. Even at Crown Tourney, I was always aware that I should have been at home on the computer. And I've had three medical visits (last week) and two more scheduled for this week. Meanwhile, that clock, it is a-ticking away as my commentator's window gets smaller and smaller. Especially with Thanksgiving at the end of the month. I'm even begrudging voting day since it cuts into my working time. (But I'm voting anyway.)(One has one's priorities.)
I shall be relieved when the process settles in my mind and I can just DO it rather than creep through it with such uncertainty.
*I meant to be more upbeat. One of the books I just read had an amusing storyline; set in Regency England, the aunt of the protagonist was a fifty-something 'faded beauty' (she'd gotten matronly) who had been a beautiful and pursued woman who led a (kind and) scandalous life; becoming a divorcee, remarrying and becoming rich through that, then widowed and then bailing out everyone she knew who was having financial problems to the point that she became poor... she decides that the stories of her life would be fun to read about and sets about beginning a book with the protagonist's aid. And the word gets out. So all the high society folks who dropped her when she became down at the heels are suddenly at her door, forcing money on her "in repayment of that little loan you gave me and oh, by the way, you won't be writing about (this embarrassing incident) in your book, will you?". She's so ditzy that she doesn't understand why her old friends are showing up and extending her such kindness...but her niece the protagonist does. It was a fun read.
I've been working, off and on, on my heraldic job since the first of the month and I'm so behind that I can feel the disapproval looming over me - I went from "hey, this isn't so bad" last month to total confusion and feeling overwhelmed this month. This isn't unusual for me, in that I tend to understand things in the broad sense and be comfortable with them at the beginning, then flail around in the details for a while until I manage to slog through and find everything clear again. And during that phase even the obvious stuff gets lost or forgotten. It's just an aspect of the learning curve for me.
But it ain't comfortable. Especially when the clock is ticking and I had no idea that it was going to hit this hard or take this long to do something that should be pretty easy (administratively).
My knee injury is keeping me from getting satisfactory rest or being able to sit at my desk for long periods of time. I've spent far too much of the last seven days flat on my back with a book* because I couldn't do any more work (pain tends to magnify the mental confusion) and couldn't sleep, either.
In the last few days I've been working for a few hours on the heraldry stuff, then taking a break, then getting more and more tensed up again until I could go back to the desk. Even at Crown Tourney, I was always aware that I should have been at home on the computer. And I've had three medical visits (last week) and two more scheduled for this week. Meanwhile, that clock, it is a-ticking away as my commentator's window gets smaller and smaller. Especially with Thanksgiving at the end of the month. I'm even begrudging voting day since it cuts into my working time. (But I'm voting anyway.)(One has one's priorities.)
I shall be relieved when the process settles in my mind and I can just DO it rather than creep through it with such uncertainty.
*I meant to be more upbeat. One of the books I just read had an amusing storyline; set in Regency England, the aunt of the protagonist was a fifty-something 'faded beauty' (she'd gotten matronly) who had been a beautiful and pursued woman who led a (kind and) scandalous life; becoming a divorcee, remarrying and becoming rich through that, then widowed and then bailing out everyone she knew who was having financial problems to the point that she became poor... she decides that the stories of her life would be fun to read about and sets about beginning a book with the protagonist's aid. And the word gets out. So all the high society folks who dropped her when she became down at the heels are suddenly at her door, forcing money on her "in repayment of that little loan you gave me and oh, by the way, you won't be writing about (this embarrassing incident) in your book, will you?". She's so ditzy that she doesn't understand why her old friends are showing up and extending her such kindness...but her niece the protagonist does. It was a fun read.
